Gov't Plants & Abogados

 The first time I ever fully understood/grasped the concept of government plants was in the fall of 2023, after I returned to the SF Bay Area from Southern California. Before that, my exposure/knowledge of these positioned people/organizations, also known as “stooges”, had been mostly through movies. Now here I was, fully aware and experiencing them in person.

A "trusted at the time" contact in my life told me that after I had departed the SF Bay Area for almost a month, he put people on me when I returned. He also told me about his more extensive involvement with politicians. As one of Hunter Biden's best friends, I bet he does have some connections! He disguised his self-serving agenda as concern for my safety and saying he “missed me so much”. (Ultimately, he had the end goal of treating me like “a prize” something my abusive ex ironically called the boy who roofied & sexually violated me at age 15.) This man was eventually just another notch in my belt of men who lied to me and used me for a very long time. It did make me sad initially, because I was his first bike coach and knew him for more than a decade. But guess what he was right there when I decided to leave my ex… an outsider probably could have predicted that! I was too naive at the time to see it.

When I think back to setting up my apartment in October 2023, as a vulnerable, separated mom, it makes me feel for that woman. She’s “me” but goddamn, where were the good men back then? I’ve often thought how I would never treat people the way these people do and realized last summer how much better I am than them - which is something I never did: tier people. If my friend experienced a fraction of the trauma I did, I’d have reached out, respected boundaries and helped her as much as I could. And furthermore, if my friend asked for a grocery gift card, I’d have tripled it. But no, I did not receive honest friend treatment from my community.

This gov’t plant confession from this man, paired with the fact my ex hired lawyers who followed my every move, could have made me paranoid: made me live a life that is always watching for someone following me… but you know, at that point, my boundaries had been so violated in every way by so many parties, that for the most part, it didn't bother me. As a matter of fact, knowing I was being watched was extra incentive to flick off cameras! Ha! Plus at that time, I had shared a first draft of my book "LA Love Vibes" with a contact and said “hey, let's do a documentary, f the book!" Ultimately, I decided to cut ties with Instagram on my “heidibethbuttery”account in late April of 2024, concluding that even social media couldn't get my story out - which was increasingly 'crazy' to put it lightly - both in terms of experiences and characters I was introduced to by this point.

Getting back to December 2023: I had hired my own family law practice attorneys, who mentioned they reviewed all the online content I posted and I had nothing to worry about. (I thought to myself: of course not! I'm sharing my truth in a well-organized, structured way - sure, I had some extra sass, but what parent/mother wouldn't at that point?) Reflecting on these lawyers' both actions & inactions - the incompetency ran super high, but I thought to myself "Gosh, from the outside my case is so simple." Turns out, it wasn't.

This law firm pretended to be compassionate with my case and I naively believed them, forking over thousands of dollars. Like so many other disgusting people that were actively involved in my life at this point, they utilized the love I have for my son against me - baiting me with a focus on sorting out custody and they delayed filing divorce papers for several months. This law firm, based in Palo Alto, changed their tune/course of action multiple times, until finally we parted ways officially in August of 2024. I coined everyone's actions as disgusting and wondered how they slept at night, often sending voice memos to a few contacts in my life at the time, expressing my disbelief.

As far as those 'friendships' that were in my Bay Area life during the extra tumultuous period between Sept 2023 through April 2024 : I have to laugh at what a good friend I was (for many years preceding), when in fact, people in my life were lying straight to my face during this time, because I've already processed the intense disappointment of their actions and dissolution of friendships. During this time, I was still promoting their organizations, helping them with their projects and even though one man would say: “Don't be afraid to ask for what you need.", by March of 2024, I didn't even want to inconvenience them to help me serve divorce papers, opting instead to pay $400 to have them served. I didn't catch on until how much I was being used until last summer, while I was living in my car! 

Present day, very few people are allowed in my inside circle. I look forward to the day where I don't have to put my guard up every time I leave the damn house. Wouldn't that be nice?

With Positive Vibes,

Heidi